Walk with Grace

Did I walk with Grace?

How do you accept a death sentence with grace?

The CAT scan showed the cancer was everywhere. I shouldn't have been too surprised. The pain that I had been feeling was so incredibly intense at times it took over my body. Everyone just chalked it up to pregnancy pains. But I knew better. There where times that the only One who understood was God. I think it was His way of preparing me to lean on Him through the journey that I was about to step into.

Liver, spleen, spine, kidneys, fluid in lungs and 2 tumors......Inflammatory Breast Cancer Stage IV.....My life was not only altered in a few days time...it was literally turned upside down and thrown side to side.

So how do I express the peace that was holding me up when everyone else was falling apart?

"Peace that passes ALL understanding." It’s the only explanation.

Some don't want to hear about God at a time like this, but yet they want to cling to Him at the same time. I watched in my time of chemo as these people graced my doorstep to take care of me and my family. As I feel better now, a year later, I wonder how much of Him I let them see.

When I was at my rawest....who was I?

Did He shine through the pain? The tiredness? The frustration? The hurt? The fear?

Who did I reveal?

Did I accept and walk with Grace?