and for that, I Am Thankful

This journey from day one as been about God right in front of me. I went from loving my God to wondering how to really love Him. It truly wasn't about the cancer. It was about me and Him. The cancer was just a means for me to truly see Him. I, now, am able to view Him out in the open...outside the box that I had Him in. Granted...I do easily shove Him back in there when it's convenient to me. But on the whole....I allow the light to shine all around Him. Or should I say, from Him?!!

I am thankful.

For cancer?!!!!

I would have to say, "Yes."

Huh?

Quiet moments allow me to reflect on where I was just 2 years ago. A good person, wife, mother, and friend. Dependable. Giving. Caring. Churchgoing. Devoted. Most anything 'good'. I was a good girl. And I did love God. With all my heart, mind and soul.

So I thought.

Experiences bring about opportunities. Each of has wonderful moments that we hold dear to our hearts. Likewise, there are the hardships that fall into our laps as well. We have a choice to make the best of these. We can dwell on the negative, bad, misfortune & hurt. OR we can grab a hold of them and see the positive, good, blessings & healing that come with.

Cancer has done this for me. It is from the enemy. No doubt about it. It is full of negative, bad, misfortune & hurt. Lots and lots of pain. But without it I never would know the positive, good, blessings and healing to the degree that my mind, heart & soul does now.

There is much that comes with cancer....

and for that, I Am Thankful.

"Give thanks to the Lord, call on his name;

make known among the nations what he has done.

Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts.

Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice.

Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.

Remember the wonders he has done,

his miracles, and the judgements he pronounced."

-Chronicles 16:8-12