Right Where I'm Supposed to Be

***SLIGHT REVISION or ADD-ON to post below***
(You know, when you're tired is probably not the best time to write...at least for me it isn't. After reading what I said below and being encouraged from another friend in the midst of her own tough trials, I wanted to add a few things....I did so at the end of this post)

ORIGINAL POST:
I was told today that I am wrong to feel alone. That I've hurt people by saying that. I'm sorry. That was not my intention at all in my past posts. I was only trying to be transparent to what is happening within my life, family and heart. I prayed before writing everything I've written. And I will continue to do so. Again, I am sorry if this truth has hurt a few. BUT. Simply put. Only I can know how I feel. And being told that I am wrong to feel lonely....

only makes me feel MORE alone. But that's okay because...

I am thankful that when I feel most alone, the One who is able to comfort my heart like no other reaches out and grabs me close. I'm right where I'm supposed to be...

ADD-ON:
I have the wonderful blessing of reading my dear friend's blog about her journey through motherhood and losing two sweet boys. I say this to let you know how much her words mean every time I read them. Whether 10 paragraphs or 2 sentences...I'm always learning from her and being encouraged about the path I'm walking. She reminded me today that, although, I may be feeling alone....I know I am not. That is such a simple truth. And one I have failed to communicate in all my whining. People, family & friends & even strangers. I know you are here. I do. But my feelings & reality are a mesh of stuff. Just like in your world. When I say I am alone here on this site it is for the purpose of allowing others see the reality of our enemy. He has brought so much crap into my life...let alone all of yours. He is able to do so much damage. And our hearts are his main focus. Feeling lonely can be both: a reality and a mirage all at the same time. But is all comes back to the truth of where we hide our heart or hearts. I choose to place mine where it should be. In my Father's care.

So don't worry. I'm not trying to point fingers. I'm just trying to allow others into the reality of my craziness. Why? Because then I don't feel so alone :) And cause it's free therapy!!! ;P Thanks for loving me enough to stop in here every now and then. I do love & appreciate you all! And thanks Kristy for the reminder that it is okay to feel the way I do & to keep it all in perspective. Love you, girl!