Without...

It's no secret that I live in pain. I've made it known through conversations, my websites, etc. I will forever live with these chronic pains unless my God choose to heal me of them. So when I ponder the following verses I am challenged and a bit perplexed.

"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation in which you shine like stars in the universe." -Philippians 2:14-15

It is human nature to complain. We are born with this. Even arguing. As we grow, hopefully we're taught otherwise. A conscious choice to be 'positive' is often times difficult. And when I look at where my life is right now....somehow I have made myself believe that I have some sort of 'right' to complain & argue. But I don't.

I am perplexed, though, because when I step outside the box and pretend this life belongs to someone else, I would have to say that they have every right to tell others what's happening. If for nothing else then sanity and survival. Not to mention the unbelievable opportunity to tell of all God's goodness.

I'm here pondering how to balance this two sided teeter toter. There is a way. I know it and I believe it. It's a matter of discretion, discernment, tactfulness AND BOLDNESS.

My prayer is that I allow Him to guide what comes out of my mouth. And that He will continue to be glorified even when I lack the ability to balance my witness in such a manner that is pleasing to Him.