I had the opportunity to share my the journey with someone I just met today. It was so exciting to see how it became all 'new' again. I was able to refresh my mind of all the details. And all I can think about is how people get so engrossed and engaged upon hearing everything that has happened in my life in the past two years.
One of the things I said upon ending was, "It's the journey, not me." And oh how I needed to hear that. With all the junk that's happening to me it is so easy to lose focus. I seem to easily get lost in my own little world, that I forget the One who sustains me in it. I truly, truly cannot understand how He is not seen in all this. But it's true. I know many who are angry with God, proclaim it's easier to just NOT believe and even outright blame Him for everything. I just can't imagine this encircling one's heart. For I see nothing but Him. As the enemy brought on the toughest of battles, my Saviour saved me time and time again from his grasp.
I realize that many of my thoughts seem to be 'typical Christian thinking'. And I am striving for nothing of the sort. 'Authentic' is more what I'm aiming to convey. This journey. This frightful, long, tiring, sweet-filled journey is more than I would ever wish for. But it sure is more than I could hope for. Today I was reminded of that. So tomorrow when I wake up struggling to face the day, I will be thankful that through this journey He is teaching me to see His face more clearly. For without this journey, I would still be looking through smudged lens.
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