Are You Ready?

People want honesty. But do they really want me to just 'tell it like it is'? I'm struggling to find the balance in this area. I like it when things are just going along smoothly...well, as smoothly as possible. :) I'm being pushed by a few that know a lot 'more' than others. "Everyone wants the whole story, not just parts that you think are good enough." "People want to know how to pray." "Help others see that you are still in the midst of the battle...just at a different level."

All three of these things have been said to me just this week. Not to mention everything else that has been said. So I am stretched. And definitely out of my comfort zone as far as transparency is concerned. Funny thing is, I thought I WAS being transparent. But now I see that I was 'picking and choosing'. I have been only allowing others to see exactly what I wanted. Painting a certain picture. My intentions have been good. But I have held back. There are things that could upset some. More importantly, there are things that would make me have to deal with embarrassment. Well....I'm over that.

First, let me say that everything I have ever said is truly how I feel/felt. Whether it just be for that moment, or far beyond it. And even if I 'failed' to completely give ALL the details...all was true. Just sifted through a bit. But would I allow my children to 'sift' through details and get away with it?!!! No way. I would turn that lesson into how wrong it is to lie. So as I reflect on this, it becomes really, very simple. I must tell the truth. The whole truth. And nothing but the truth.......don't ya think?!!!!!


So as I venture into even more uncertain territory of allowing others see me thru and thru, be gentle in your perception of my reality. Please. Be cautious to form false opinions of what you may perceive me, my life and this situation to be. Please. Be able to sort through all that I may present and try to relate it to someone/s in your immediate life that you may be able to bless. Please. Take a breathe. Say a prayer. And read with an open heart to the reality that more people than we care to admit are hiding behind a smile and 'life is good' attitude just to be able to make it through the day....and to please.


My journey with cancer is enough. But there is more. A child with Diabetes, extreme financial hardship, relationships that are torn apart by self righteousness, a special needs child, marital issues, depression, physical pain that tops the charts are just a few of the issues that I will be opening up to my 'audience' about. Some I have already shared. Some will come as surprises to most. And even some will be news to everyone.

I am being stretched that's for sure. So I caution you that the 'tone' of what I will be writing about, may be more than you care to take in. That's okay. I understand if you need to bow out because this is more than you bargained for. Truly, truly I do. I've have to pretty much bow out of everything surrounding me just to be able to actually 'live' in the moments I've been granted with my family. And if you decide to stay and partake of what God lays on my heart to share in the upcoming days....then I am so blessed by your company. Thank you all no matter your choosing. Whether you go or stay...you are forever a blessing for being a part of my life. I am humbled everyday by the interest and love so many have for me.