Update 10/31/08

This week has been better than last in most areas. Thank you for all the encouragement and prayers. I appreciate them so much.

I got to see my doctor this week during treatment. Because of the many side effects I am having TO the medications for my other side effects :)...we are changing a few of them. It will probably be a juggling act for awhile. Frustration does seem to be at the forefront of my emotions in this area a lot of the time. Only because I so wish I could be a mommy to my kids as close to 100% as possible. Most of the time I know they are being short changed a great deal of so much. But don't you worry, I do try and balance these feelings with the knowing that I AM here and that in and of itself is HUGE for my kids...and me! :)

Most likely, I am looking at having surgery soon. My mom and I are trying to coordinate everything. Along with the fact that my doctor's assistant is working so hard to accommodate all of our 'timetable issues'...it should be Nov/Dec sometime.

There have been so many that are shocked that I am still in treatment. So I do want to clarify, that my maintenance originally was to be 5 years (give or take depending on scans, etc.) Because my case has 'stumped' some of the medical 'predictions'.....my maintenance will continue pending what shows on scans. It could continue for up to the 5 year mark. So, yes, for those who asked....I am a cancer patient still and I do get it through IV every 3 weeks. BUT lets not forget that I AM a survivor and more importantly...I am a here because of a healing MIRACLE.
Sobering, huh?!!!

I am excited that tomorrow at this time I will probably be in Barbara's company. I do know that her walking and vision are still issues. I have not heard anything else. I will send out an update soon after I get back. Until then, please continue to hold her up in prayer. It truly does mean so much.

Please continue to know how much you all mean. This is a road that can be extemely lonely. And it seems I'm on one of those paths right now. I know there are many who are in my corner. But when you are in the midst of something looking out at others who are, seemingly, not...well, let's just say I could say a mouthfull on this subject. But I will just stop there and again thank you for all your support and encourage you to look around at the people in your life that might need some lovin'. :)

Have a safe night tonight and a wonderful weekend
love, Shannon