One of those days

It's been one of those days.

Blah and full of emotions I would rather not have. I'm exhausted from trying to work through things. Over and over again. But yet, I know it's God's way of allowing me a new lesson. A way for me to grow.

I woke up near tears.
Already tired and hadn't even gotten out of bed yet.
Discouraged that other's can 'move' on to bigger and better.
I'm still stuck here.
Having to be social isn't what I wanted to do today because..

It's been one of those days.

Kids fighting nonstop and definitely not listening to me one bit. Expectations are thrown at me from every angle. Where do I throw mine?

I'm sinking.

I need a like preserver.

But I have to put my face on.
And dress pretty.
Let's not forget, lecturing kids to 'act right'.
It's been one of those days...

Why do I do it? Why do I pretend? Why do any of us pretend? To make people comfortable.
That's what I did today. Sucked it all up. For others. I hid myself. I was full of ache, heartache.

It's been one of those days...

And He provided.

I had one who dove in...wanting to really, really know just how I was.
I cried.
So did she.
We talked...really, really talked.
In such a short time she allowed me to be just me. I was able to 'show' my true self.

It's been one of those days.

One where He provides

just

what

I

need